“May we never lose our wonder
Wide eyed and mystified
May we be just like a child
Staring at the beauty of our King.”
Bethel Music Lyrics – Wonder
In the past month, The Lord has very clearly put one word on my heart: wonder. One day, I found myself singing this Bethel song over and over again in my head. I didn’t think anything of it at first because it is a really great song, but then I realized that I haven’t heard it in a while and there’s really no reason it should be stuck in my head this often and for this long.
But I continued to sing it in my head and belting it out loud, which is not a pretty sound. I listened to it on repeat in my car, I listened to it when I ran, I sang it loudly in the shower, and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. This wasn’t just some song. This was from the Lord. He was screaming these lyrics to me, and softly weaving them into my heart. “Callie, may you never lose your wonder, wide eyed and mystified, may you be just like a child, staring at the beauty of your King.”
Last Fall I lost my wonder.
I was questioning who I was and who God was. I was like a zombie just wandering the world. I didn’t appreciate the little things, I was closed off to the wonders of the world, I wasn’t grateful, and I wasn’t vulnerable or willing to ask for help. I was deep in darkness and feeling all the weight.
Wonder: a feeling of surprise mingled with admiration, caused by something beautiful, unexpected, unfamiliar, or inexplicable
How beautiful are those words above – surprise mingled with admiration. Exodus 15:11 says, “Who is like You among the gods, O LORD? Who is like You, majestic in holiness, Awesome in praises, working wonders?” I must be in constant awe of the Lord, of His love and grace and goodness for me and my life. I must be absolutely surprised in admiration by what Jesus did on the cross for me. When I was dead in my sin and deserved nothing else but death, He paid my price. He hung on a cross, was beaten, mocked and abandoned by God who couldn’t handle the weight of my sin. He died in my place so that I can live a life of wonder. What greater love story could cause this feeling of total surprise mingled with admiration?
The song continues with these simple lyrics: “You (God) are beautiful in all your ways.” God is mighty and if he wants you to hear something, he will make a way. It might not be immediate or as obvious as you would hope or in your timing, but he will make a way and He will make it beautiful. Praise God! Praise God that he turned a dark time of my life into something beautiful. Praise God that he opened my eyes to see the wonder that he offers.
“He is your praise and He is your God, who has done these great and awesome
things for you which your eyes have seen.” Deuteronomy 10:21